What happens when, even if your heart is crowded with friends, you feel lonely?... ._.

If, despite you give your all every single day of your life, no one seems to appreciate it... if you need a hug, but don't want to ask for it and no one notices... if, every time you think you've found the right track, you only find another desillusion... if you try so hard to be happy all day, but you cannot smile much longer... if you might need the others to make the first step... if every night you find it hard to keep away your fears...if you need someone to tell you "It's all right n_n".... if nostalgy stabs you from behind... if you feel that no one understands you... and even worse, that you don't have someone to run to... someone who will caress your hair and smile... smile, smile... you hide your fears behind smiles... you bury your problems beneath smiles and songs... you constantly search for a reason to go on, a reason to believe, the courage to keep being yourself... does that makes you weak?... you hate yourself for being weak and sensitive... sometimes you wish your life'd been as "perfect" as other's.... you've got so much to give, and yet... you give it all to your loved beings, you give it all everyday, and yet... you still feel lonely... is this human nature? is it wrong being human?... humans are afraid of what they don't understand... is this fear?... fear to loneliness?...are you afraid???...Yes, i'm scared... the sole thought of being alone terrifies me... i need comprehension... and actually a little bit of attention... i'm sick of giving my all every fvcking day, what for?? huh?? "oh yeah, i'll go out with some friends, you can wait me here"... "oh yeah, i'm too interested in something else to even notice that you're not as always"... "i'm too afraid to even tell you what i feel, so i'll better stop talking to you, & maybe you'll forget it all!".... and want to know something else? "i'll just make you jealous because i know how you feel about me!"..... what's the matter with you people?! perhaps it's not sufficient for you that i give you all my smiles, all of my best thoughts, all of my love every single day?!? i'm sorry i can't be the PERFECT friend you might need, but since i'm not God, i do need some expressed-affection, you know! And if you're not satisfied with me, then quit playing with my heart, if you please... aside of being unconditional, what else do you want me to do?? wash your frets or something??...agh it's no use shouting to deaf crowds... anyway, this is only for relieving so the buggie to the grass and the artichoke to its house, see ya later my little canteens!! PS. Your cat has died...¡Viva la familia!... el limón no mata la bacteria del cólera!... toma vida suero oral!.... come frutas y verduras!... consulte a su médico!...U-N-E-T-E A L-O-S O-P-T-I-M-I-S-T-A-S!!!!!